Mood:  lazy

What do you do when the creavitiy leaves you? It's still there, but it's dormant, and even though you may  want more than anything to use it--it's just not there. When life gets in the way or when other things "stop" the creativity, then what? Do you give up? Distract yourself? Try to stay busy? Push through and work anyway, even though you know it won't be right.

I shut down every winter. I have no idea why, and each winter I say "I'm going to not shut down this winter." So much for those big plans. It's not like I have a choice. After all...no matter what you do--you can't do it all the right, right? If you are a marathon runner, you can't run all the time. You have to give it a break-and rest or eat or meditate or whatever else it takes--just to maintain.

Creativity is like a well. Sometimes there's water in that well, and sometimes not. Then at other times, it's in there...somewhere down deep inside, but it's disconnected. Imagine, if you will, an extension cord that's not plugged in. Some days you are connected to it, and some not.

I berate myself for not getting enough done. It's a familiar refrain, and anyone who is close to me gets soooo tired of hearing me say that. (My closest associates also say this in their own lives, so at least I'm preaching to the choir.)

Yet, even with the feeling that I haven't gotten enough done during the winter time "off months", I still completed a novel this past weekend. I had no idea it was in there...in me. I started writing June 23, 2008, and finished Saturday, April 11, 2009. I wasn't expecting to finish it that day, but it just kinda happened. Then--miracle of miracles--I edited it and proofed it, and pitched it on Monday, April 13. Go figure. That is a process that takes me months. And for it to happen in days??

Anyway, time will tell. It will be awhile before it sees the light of day.

Best,

creativitylives